rock on PS

love this plasma effect i've learned from a creative website. this was the output i made out of following the step by step tutorial posted by a very dear girl. i almost ran out of patience--almost--but i was amazed enough to overcome it. im doing another one with some other cute effects.

fantasy dream #3: keyboardist/pianist

can somebody snag me a keyboard or much better, a grand piano??

im bad at singing, out of tune and very effortless--my darling baby sister smashed that in my face when i was destructively singing.(or should i say, reciting? lol) so since im not given the talent to sing, i lifted the possibilities to playing some musical instruments. apparently, guitar didn't worked with my poor talent just so i think drums won't please me, either. i envied those who can strum the guitar, boom the drum set, key on the piano, play harmoniously on the huge string instruments and all that. i think i don't know anything worth complimenting, i feel incapacitated in this world--pardon the melodramatic statement.

at least now i have something to save for, i have to acquire the cheapest keyboard in Manila as soon as i start school again. in one of our sleepovers at a classmate's house, i get to learn a piano piece and it's called Bella's lullaby.(the one played by RPattz at twilight which is originally by carter burwell) i took a lot of patience while memorizing the keys and i paid more attention on the piano lessons than the real purpose of the groupwork. so as anticipated, i wasn't able to finish the piece and i wasn't able to play it with two hands working. im still novice at piano so i don't look forward for a perfect overnight lessons but i was eager to pursue it and promised myself to patiently learn every step. probably, i want my first success be Bella's Lullaby.

piano would really be the least option i have and will pursue. i won't have troubles with clamming onto the right string of guitar although i ought to have extra-long fingers so i can keep up with distant keys. c:

final fantasy

this would probably be my last and final twilight blog--by god's grace. i can't have someone to discuss about twilight this time, home is barely tedious and im afraid i'd get to my housemates' nerves if im going to be pushy about the topic. perhaps, blogging appeared to be my best bud--i've been confiding everything inane to it without getting anxious to any interference.

aside from the massive interest i had for the movie, i must say it was overpowered by the desire i have for the making of twilight. i missed the first showing of 'reel deal--TWILIGHT' at studio 23, heaven bless them for granting the unfortunates another replay the following sunday. so i've got no other chances to spare this, i was crucially concentrated on the television. the set is messy enough for a production, i love the bloopers and their special effects is absolutely awesome. i love the magic carpet and the invisible yarn. LOL. it was indeed a prodigal production, love the cast so much.

pardon the relentless topic

the twilight saga has settled it's place on the literature history. everyone's screaming about love for vampires and is hooked on the characters. the invasion of fansites over the web is unstoppable, the comments and reviews continue to appraise the series and everyone watches the movie for the nth time now. the saga has gloriously given love another connotation to live for.

hands down to the most loved author of the new generation, STEPHENIE MEYER. how kind of you to pursue publishing twilight just so for us to read your amazing stories. your tale of imagination left me dumb-founded and i realized that was exactly what i've been aspiring of. bunch of thanks for you indeed enlightened my dark-hopeless intimacy for the opposite, i feel better for them now. the hardship you've been through as you ought to finish the story dwells on me likewise, you wouldn't know how i want to keep the story going. however, it as to end. i too, was in deep infatuation with Edward Cullen--who's eventually a fictional character.

prince charming, prince, hero, knight in shining armor, romeo---i'm over and done with all that fantasies. im sick of hearing same old cheesy lines from fables so i gave up my childish side and went a bit closer to reality. all im reading is about human behavior, real life and love stories and those who have supporting studies to base not until i was alarmed by a novel called TWILIGHT. i was told that the story is about a teenage girl risking her life for the love of a vampire---unique, i thought. that alone never gave me enough reason to grab a copy and start reading coz i was never a fan of horrors and i thought the idea of a vampire was horrifyingly scary. in a matter of few days, i found myself interested with the topic that the class is prattling about and boom! i was a borne twilight addict.

never in my earnest absurdity have i thought of a vampire in love with a teenage girl, people are precised to know that vampires aren't meant to have loving hearts or even an ease to humans--being their prey, at least. as i flip on the chapters, i fell in love with Edward and Bella--the masochistic lion and the stupid lamb. the book gave a colorful view to love, away from the thorns of reality. and it ingrained some values and principles that counts to end things up gleefully. stephenie insisted that life offers choices to consider and it's on our behalf to opt whichever complements us. perhaps, it only takes two responsible persons to conquer a relationship they are wanting all their life. weeeeee, i thought i've passed all this insanity. i'd better keep out painstaking the enormous romantic appeal the movie has smacked me--im afraid i'd be at my cheesiest moment. besides, all else that's needed to include in here has been posted long before i had discovered twilight. ENOUGH OF THE REDUNDANCY.

readers had a great pull out of the Edward-Bella tandem that some non-romantic values seems vague. puzzled by what i am talking about? it's quite relevant to FAMILY AND HOME VALUES. i realized this just after im done with my second reading coz i least concentrated on Edward and Bella and concentrated to the other characters although i can't be that cautions to Edward Cullen. going back, i was amazed by how the Cullen Family (or should i note, coven? either way works.) was constructively connived. dwelling on the fact that nobody's related to anybody in the family--they were fosters. therefore, it proves that having a family is not about who gave your life but rather who made your every breath worth enduring. love isn't measured by how can your parents provide a lavishly bountiful life but with the way they treat and respect you as a person, not just their kid. twilight pictures a family who's only concern is the happiness of every member, against all the odds. i can't imagine how a real family can be as supportive as they were to Edward. it's undeniably and unquestionably a real, human family in the presence of goddess vampires.

quick

i have no idea what to say now, i don't feel anything really worth the write. to give you just a glimpse of my day, i just finished my second reading of twilight which is something i intended to do over again and no regrets so far. the feeling is constant, i am still romantically inclined with the novel although i visualized more characters now compared to my past reading which entirely revolved between edward-bella. i made a short essay about twilight, AGAIN. and those were statements out of maturity and less concentrated on the romantic context.

i'll leave the typing for tomorrow and have some reading tonight. i have to feed my brain coz im afraid it'll be rusted by vacation. that's all.

fantasy dream #2--guest speaker

i've had my fair share of graduation rights but i am still actively attending ceremonies for my siblings as a photographer. i must admit, when i was at their age in the same situation--wearing my toga and sitting on a chair reserved for graduates--i wasn't paying much attention to whatever the speaker says in front. i would roll my eyes all over instead, to see how do people look and what they are prattling about. i don't know if it's the boring presence of the guest speaker that i keep my eyes off him/her or is it the absence of my ear to listen to any talk of wisdom coz im busy foreseeing the next days of my life. to be honest, i don't even remember who our guest speaker was--both high school and elementary. so stupid of me.

but as an audience and having my mom on the next seat who's listening to the programme, i am forced to pay attention and observe what's going on on stage. I AM EAGER AND INTERESTED TO LISTEN TO THE GUEST SPEAKER, RATHER. since i started college here, i felt like i needed to be as knowledgeable as someone is and im counting on that through lots of listening and reading. im talking in general, meaning not only the teachers and the professors we have inside the classroom but every person who talks in their behalf to impart something to us in either perspective--academically or life concerns. you'll never know how relevant they were unless you give them credits through listening. it helps when an aspiring individual takes time to contemplate with somebody more experienced and inspirational rather than going through life with your own.

i fantasized being not just a guest speaker but a person full of wisdom. the feeling is incomparable when somebody tapped your back, ask you to join her for a serious talk and exchange sensible conversation. your impact is not measured by the countless people you caught attention but with the few whom you are able to make a difference.

that was a snap vacation

yes, i am home--manila. i left about a month ago and had my snap summer vacation at bicol, all passed on blur as i left my hometown. i've been here for almost three days now, however, i was unable to update my blogger by the time i arrived.

we're home sunday morning from the 10-hour travel and i took a nap to relieve my headache. when i woke up, i realized i was sick and that my back is painful so i ate my lunch and took a high-dosage ibuprofen then laid back in bad. i was positive that my aches will be cured by the medicine but i was surprised when my eyelids starts to swell, my nose gets red and my skin is terribly itchy. i really looked awful. in short, that was an allergy. thank God it healed itself by night though i was still sick the next day. another jinx had happened, BLACK OUT--meaning no everything. it could've been the perfect timing to upload all the pictures i've gathered and start to type the essays i've written during my vacation. the lights never went steady for 3 days, i'll see to it this day. tomorrow will be a very long day, i guess, since i'll be joining my brother in his school interview and im candidly sure i'll be sitting on a bench somewhere waiting for his turn. i feel like im freshman again. im praying for a little sun for tomorrow. i hate the rain when im outdoors.

ok, bye for now. he's going to beat me if i didn't jump off here. c: